Setelah Sekian Lama Tidak Mendapat Kasih Sayang...3 Prinsip Dibuang Begitu Sahaja

Tengoklah pic ni....nampak bahagia je kn?agak2 korang siapa ngorat siapa?siapa minat siapa and siapa yg beriya???mestilah lelaki handsome ni kan...??sebab based from my previous post mmg i penah ckp i xlayan laki..i xsenang2 suka and sayang kan lelaki...and bila i sayang i sayang betul2..lelaki ni cuba sedaya upaya untuk dapatkan hati ini...puas i tolak and elakkan diri daripada dia...why?sebab i xsuka lelaki yang handsome2 ni..i suka laki yang biasa2 je..i tau siapa diri i..i hanyalah manusia biasa dan x terkemuka..sbb i mmg xpernah tengok rupa,status,kepandaian and sewaktu dengannya....but entah macamana, Tuhan timbulkan rasa cinta dekat dia..and masa tu lah i dh xboleh nak nafikan yg hakikatnya i dah jatuh cinta dengan dia..

Senang cakap,'HE'S LIKE A MIRROR TO ME"....perangai,attitude,personality pn sama...i boleh nampak diri i bila i communicate dgn dia...dia penyabar orgnya..dia xsenang2 marah..dia lembut je bila bercakap..sama mcm i..dia alim orangnya..baik and nampak baik...mcmana pun dia..i xpenah make the first move untuk dekatkan diri i kat dia..i xpenah tackle,tegur or even like/comment pic dia since he added me at Facebook in 2009. The funny thing was that, nama dia Muaz, so i igtkan dia kawan kepada ex i Meuz, sbb ade kawan Meuz nama dia Muiz add i...That time, Muaz tengah with someone and i was single back then. why?because he never been single!lepas orang ni orang ni lepas orang ni orang ni...and so on...until now when he dump me for another girl..

So,masa dia tgo i tu..dia ade gf...i dh nampak dh what kind of guy he is..ade gf but still chat dgn other girls..but as friend, i dont mind..kira kwn via fb je and not more than that...masa tu masing2 ada buah hati masing2...i dgn zhafri and dia dengan ujie....2011 i was with zhafri,of course i xlyan mana2 guy pn..i setia dgn bf i masa tu..this guy,nama dia muaz...he ade like my pic and comment..i ske post wallphotos..pic monyet la ape la..yg merepek2..dia like and comment...i layan x layan je..tp mostly...mmg x layan...
In pertengahan 2012, dia comment,like pic i dgn my dad pergi tengok Concert Ella& Awie and tgo i kt FB chat..we were talking about the concert je..bla3...ckp psal wings sume..we made a deal..until now i still remember...sbb i nak sgt pinjam cd wings dari dia..but that doesnt mean i nak jumpe dia..i nak dia pos kt i...i minat gila wings..in fact, masa i dah  together dgn dia, i dh plan nak pg tgk concert wings dgn dia..even i xleh kuar malam...xleh kuar malam?eeeeee..bosan gila girl mcm i ni kan?huuuuuu...

xlama lepas tu..dia ckp dia dah tau perangai buruk gf dia..and mengadu kt i..dia ckp gf dia curang dgn laki lain belakang dia..dia cte mcm2 kt i..and i dgr je..and i rasa kesian kt dia..i pun cte jgk pasal prob i dgn zhafri kt dia...dia ckp dia almost nak getting married dgn ujie tu...but that girl buat hal..dia sakit hati sgt..he found out through her fb...dia nmpk msge2 yg ujie lupa nak delete..the sent messages dia x delete..but inbox dia delete..Tuhan tu maha adil..so tuhan nak tunjuk kat dia apa yang girl tu buat belakang dia...i lak dh hurt zhafri..so i tau ape yg muaz ni rasa...even i xpernah curang dgn zhafri...but  i value perasaan org sangat2..so,i pun tenangkan muaz utk pk msak2,and bincang elokk2, maafkan ujie and bg second chance kt dia...muaz ckp kalau bg chance and benda sama berlaku jugak buat apa?hmmmmm...then dia kata nak cte kt i..and mtk num i..i btl2 expect dia nak cte via fb je..like video call or something...and so..kteorg texting and calling..i tenangkan dia..TANPA ADA NIAT NAK DAPATKAN DIA,AND AMBIL KESEMPATAN ATAS APA YG DAH JADI,XPERNAH NIAT NAK RAMPAS OR NGORAT DIA.i mtk dia bersabar...hehe..i igt lagi time tu word yg i keep ckp was "sabar kay"..sbb mmg kene sabar banyak2 dlm hidup ni..xkre la in any situation pun..sabar tu penting...that is  my life principle...

but biasalah...bila dia call i or text i..i bkn pgg sgt pn hp..so i xsedar and always lambat responded to him...seriously i paham ape dia rasa...dia dah nak kawin dgn girl tu and girl tu ade laki lain...i ksian sgt kt dia..sampai i doakan dia jumpe yg better so that ex dia rasa menyesal atas perbuatan dia..but when ex dia dtg blik..hati dia kne kuat...so bnda yg sama jgk i ckp kt dia..i ckp kt dia..ex dia akn cri dia jgk one day..sbb dia xpenah buat salah kt ex dia..for sure ex dia akn dtg kt dia..cuma antra cpt atau lmbt tu je..mcm inmy case..i tau je i buat salah dgn zhafri,terus i make it up to him..terus i xbuat dah mistake i tu...but ex dia marah2 bila dia nak check hp..and masa tu lah dia dpt rasakan yg ex dia dh berubah and dah ada laki lain...i pujuk and pujuk and tenangkan dia day by day..everyday...dia yg tengah sedih ckp tgh dgr lagu  by wings, Awie, "Di Ambang Wati" and dia ckp dia sedih sgt..kenapa girl buat cmni kt dia..ujie suro dia pg kt girl lain...duk push2 dia pg kt girl lain..cari girl lain..bla3..i cm terigt..dia ni kata nak call nk cerita je..tp end up calling evryday..b4 tdo la ape la..so i dh mcm pelik..tp mmg xpenah stop pujuk and tenangkan hati dia..sbb i tau hati dia remuk girl tu ade guy lain...and i lak masa tu hati i remuk sbb i  dh cuba mcm2 utk dptkan zhafri balik..tp hati dia x terbuka utk i..sedangkan i mmg xde laki lain selain dia.

petang2 i slalunya pg swim..so ade la muaz tnye i buat ape harini..buat apa ptg ni..i ckp i nak pg swim..dia tnye kt mne dgn sapa..apa sume..and then dia ade jgk ajk i teman dia makan...sikitpun i x layan...dia cte kt i dia ade nak kuar dgn girl ni..satu ofce dgn dia..and that girl pn tau yg dia dh single..bila dia ckp dia dah nak kwin dgn ujie..terus girl tu ckp.." u kawin dgn i je la sng"...hohoho..can u imagine?girls lain flirting dgn dia but i dont! dia cte la dia jmpe girl ni..bla3..until now i wonder is she the same girl yg dating with him now?hurm...Tuhan je tau sume tu...ade dia ckp nak lumba swim dgn i..sketpn i x layan...pastu dia tnye if bukan member of the club brp...dia ckp tengok sapa teror swim..i honest dgn dia.i swim mmg sorang2..and x nak ade org lain pn.lagi2 guys..sbb haram and x manis dipandang org ramai..ape pulak org kata nnt..i ckp kt dia..if i swim dgn anak sedara or kawan2..it not swimming anymore..its called as 'berendam dalam air sambil borak2'...kan lain tu?hahahahahaha!!!mmg lain la..duhhhhhhhh!!!

i lak masa tu dah start keluar dgn guy lain..sbb i mmg cmtu..after a year plus baru i start dating balik...it takes a long time for me to like and love a guy..so bila i kuar dgn guy tu, means i ske dia...tp yg i kuar ni i bkn ske pn..saja je bosan2...and best di treat mcm princess..hahahahaa...ade one time tu..i cte kt muaz guys ni ajk i kuar mse bfday i..20 sept...and then i ade kuar dgn kwn guy i ni..masa baru balik dari kg..i lepak dgn this guy dgn kwn i..but xpernah pun ber2...hohohooh...muaz tau i kuar dgn guys sume tu..so i kuar dgn this two guys...mmg none of them dapat hati i...dua2 pun baik...tp ade la part yg i xske..smoke la..pakai rantai la..too handsome la..ape la tu la ini la..hahahaha..sbb ape?i tgk hati...bukan tgk rupa..guys yg i date tu..rupa ada but chemistry xada..huuuu...nk buat cmne..yg sorang ni dh 3 ke 4 tahun single and sorg lg ni..whole life single.haaaaaaaa....ok je sbenarnya kn?but xkkan nak paksa diri ni lak?hohohoho...

lama2 tu...29 sept birthday zhafri..i lak tgh jiwa kacau and pg titiwangsa...sbb utk bfday dia i buat lagu utk dia and i dh bg kt dia and dia maki2 i....mestilah dia mrh..dh i buat hal..hurm...jht shereen ni....so masa tu hari sabtu and i ade class...so after abis class i terus pg titiwangsa..pdhal i xplan pn nak pg titiwangsa..i just nak pg class and balik umah tdo...but i changed my mind and terus pg titiwangsa...masa kt ttiwangsa tu..i called muaz sbb nak bgtau the cost for those yg bkn member club to swim there...muaz pn tnye i kt mne..dgn sape..sorg ke...pastu tnye i dh mkn blom...i ckp blom and dia tnye knp..i ckp i lupa nak bwk wallet i..dah la xde org kat rumah..my parents pg kebun...and i lapar and thirsty sgt...pastu muaz terus ckp tggu dia..dia dtg time tu jgk..i diam je...pastu dia ckp..xpun i dtg bg duit kt u and then i balik..pun i diam jgk..sbb nak xnak i kne jgk jmpe dgn dia ni...dia kata dia nak siap jap and terus gerak pg titiwngsa jmpe i...dia mtk i tggu dia and jgn pg mne2...if not x dpt mnum and mkn..hahahaha..adooiiii!!!

So i pun tggu dia kat titiwangsa...dlm masa yg sama...kwn laki i ni tnye i kt mne..ni kwn dri primary skewl..pastu i ckp i kt titiwangsa and sorg2...pastu dia nak dtg temankan i...i ckp i tgh tggu muaz...so masa muaz sampai tu kwn laki i tu tgh borak2 dgn i..tp i xprsan muaz dh sampai..sbb i pk mybe umah dia jauh dia mandi ape sume...huuu..pastu muaz call i and ckp dia xnaik kete naik bas la ape la..traffic jam la ape la..hohohoho...pastu dia ckp sbenarnya dia dh smpai and dia kt blkg i..and dia tnye sapa laki yg tgh ckp dgn i tu..dia igt i kne kacau...adoiiii!!!pastu...dia dtg and salam dgn mber laki i tu..and mber laki i pn chow..muaz ckp..amboi..skejap je sorg2 dh kne kacau?sape tu u?pastu i ckp kt dia..tu kwn primary skewl i..i ckp tjumpa..sbb i xnak muaz terasa...i xnak muaz pk i layan dua2..tgk tu,masa tu i xske dia lagi..tp dah jaga hati dia..what the hell???!!!so masa jmpe muaz tu...i tgk je dia and rasa cm x cye je dia kt dpn mata i...laki handsome yg add i..yg dlu ade gf yg cantik..yg i  adore both of them sbb sama cantik sama padan..and now..dia kt dpn mata i..actually jumpa i utk blanje i mkn n mnum...he 'saved my life' LOL!pastu muaz tnye la slalu dtg sni ke nak mnum ape..i ckp nak mnum chatime..and then dia ckp amboii..xde duit pn nak mnum yg mahal2..mnum je la air kosong..air kosong je k?hahaha..pastu kteorg gelak2...pastu i ckp nak pg berasingan...muaz ajk pg skali dgn dia...the moment i nak masuk kete dgn dia..jantung i dh berdegup kencang sgt...xtau kenapa..maybe sbb i dh lama x dating cmni...last i dlm kete was with zhafri..tu pn skali je..so i rasa cm nervous sgt..!!spnjang dlm kete..i x borak sgt..sbb i malu and mcm i cant believe what i am doing right now!!!

sampai je chatime..i pn order pearl milk tea..dia pn...pastu kteorg duduk..bual2...pastu i terus bgtau kt muaz yg i buat lagu kt zhafri...and muaz tkejut gila...dia ckp pmpuan xpenah buat lagu kt dia...bestnya...bla3...pastu borak pasal ujie...i ckp kt dia...siapa tahu the next girl x better dari ujie?xnak tggu dia ke?and what if the next girl better than ujie?pastu xsmpai 5minit...air i dh habis...then dia tnye nak lg ke?dahaga btl i ni..hehehe.i ckp nak..tp i segan sgt..dh la first time jmpe and dh mnum dua air..kah3!!lawak gila..i ckp x nak la..terus muaz belikan utk i satu lg..tekejut i!!!kteorg bual bual..tp i mmg x bual byk..i byk dgr je..sbb i mmg malu and x biasa buat cmni...klakar gila bila terigt balik...hahahahahhaa!!!pastu muaz ckp kt tngkat ats tu ade tmpt karok and dia ckp murah..i pn jadi excited la kan..hohohoho...so dia pn ajk karok...i cm xnak..sbb i nak karok with my own money..i xnak duit dia...wuaaaaaa!!!pastu dia ckp xpe kejap je pn..dia blanje...so i pn stuju after dia dh pujuk tu..masa naik tingkat tiga kt bgunan tu,i nmpk satu room ni nmpk cm org main golf..sbb rmput dia mmg cm golf...rupanya i slh...hahahaha...muaz pnyela gelakkn i...hehehehe..malunyaaaa!!!dia ckp mana ada org main golf dlm bangunan...adoiii..malu wehhh!!!.kteorg pun karok..seriously sepanjang i dgn dia...hati ni bdegup kencang...my heart beats fast...xtau kenapa...so kteorg nyanyi lagu mcm2..and dia pn nyanyi lagu wings sume..mmg best la..bila nyanyi lagu cintan..dia pndang and gerakkn tgn mcm tgh tujukan kt i..i buat x tau je....sikitpun x cair...masa tu..i terigt time i karok dgn zhafri..xde plak jantung i cmni...pelik pelik!!!!muaz dgn i duk jauh je...bila dia nyanyi dia mnghadap i and selang seli tengok lirik kt screen..bila i nnyi...dia tgk i...sumpah blushing gilaaaaaa!!!pastu tepuk2 tgn..suara dia sedap..dia ckp suara i sedap..bla3...we had fun!!!bila dh abes karok...i cm dh xnak balik...tp xkkn la nak kuar lama2 dgn dia lak kn...

MasyaAllah selekeh gila i masa tu..dengan x pakai make up nya..i just pakai skirt bunga2 mcm beach style tu..and pakai baju kosong warna putih...selekeh gilaaa...hua3!!!pastu kuar dgn laki handsome mcm muaz ni..mmg xlayak kot...mesti dia nak balas budi i tenangkan dia and pujuk dia masa dia heartbroken..i pk cm tu je...so bila dh balik umah...i expect tadi tu last for everything...benda yg xsepatutnya i buat and berlaku.,..tp xsangka...dia still text n call i tnye dh smpai umah ke blom and caring dgn i ape sume..masa tu i rasa cm i selesa berkawan dgn dia..borak2 dgn dia mmg best..dia kelakar sgt...he's so funny until i akan gelak with all the jokes that he did..heeeeeeeee...i really miss him bila ckp pasal ni...so then kteorg slalu text..calling..and dia pn dh start post kt wall i...jom main golf kt tingkat tiga..hahahaha..adoiiii!!!suprisingly i pn reply comment dia and rasa best sgt borak2 dgn dia...i pn sedar yg i dh start suka kt dia....

Kteorg keep dating and this time kteorg pg times square...my fav shopping place ever!!!heheheh...i pakai hitam and dia pn sama...eeeee..sibuk jeeee...hohohohoh...tp time tgh jalan tu tiba2 kasut i koyak...and sampai je times square terus pg cari kasut yg baru...cari punya cari dia recommend selipar kt i..i nak kasut yg tutup..i ske kasut cmtu..lgpun sng nak pkai pg kolej or mana2 tmpt pn...so dia pn plihkan utk i...and dia pilih kasut ni..

CANTIKKAN???!!!pandai dia pilih untuk i...i sitll pakai even rasa ketat sikit sampai luka kaki i..tp i pakai sbb ape?sebab buah hati i bagi...i hargai apa yang dia bagi kt i...

Since hobi kteorg ni karok...time dating je sure kteorg karok..at the same place..dh jadi port kteorg..since dia duk kt gombak and i duk kt u.kelang...so tmpt kteorg pg kt area setapak ni kre tengah2 la..so its convinient for us....kteorg karok lagu Baldu Biru..Kau Mawarku..lagu Dua Insan..Lagu Aku Cinta Aku Rindu, Dengarkanlah and mcm2 lagi...basically, lagu Kau Mawarku dah jadi lagu kteorg...and lagi satu lagu wajib kteorg is Tragedi Tenda Biru...yeah..kteorg mmg ske nyanyi lagu melayu ni...compare to lagu2 lain...lagu melayu la yang paling best and feeling!!!Masa ni mmg tak dinafikan...i dah start sayang kan dia...dia layan i baik...and masa ni jgk dia dgn i dah start mesra....

I'm Falling in Love With Him

Bulan October, dia bg i kad Agrobank dia...dia ckp if emergency i nak contact dia ke ape...carilah dia kt office dia...siap bagi card lagi..melted i tau x!!dlu kteorg cntc guna my 2nd numb...dia keep mtk num yg i slalu guna but xdpt2....so...since i dpt ni,i bg numb maxis i kt dia...and masa tu..mmg xde gap langsung btween me and him..cntc je 24/7....and first dugaan datang..ex i cari i..and dia mtk i block ex i and semua yg related dgn ex i..i ikut je ckp dia...asalkan hubungan kami kekal bahagia selalu...

7October 2012, i ajak muaz pergi wedding kwn i..actually masa tu ada kwn laki i yg offer utk i amik kt umah and grak same2..but i chose muaz rather than other guys...i tkejut gila bila sampai je..laki tu tunggu i dgn muaz kt main entrance dewan tu..diorg salam and laki tu terus snyp..masa masuk je dewan tu kwn laki i sorg lg ok je dgn muaz..dia siap tnye ni bf i ke..i hanya mampu senyum tersipu2 malu..hehe..pastu i nmpk yg kwn laki sorg ni ok je dgn muaz..in fact, dia ckp muka muaz dgn i nak sama..and dia ckp if muka sama ni ada jodoh, pnjang jodoh tau..kteorg pandang each other and mampu tersenyum malu..i lak ckp amin dalam hati i..moga ada jodoh i dgn muaz ni...sbb hati i mmg dh terpaut dgn dia..

Muaz dgn i bergurau senda,berborak2 sampai x igt dunia..i dh xnmpak org lain..i just nampak kteorg dua je...hehehe..gelak2...makan ape sume..cerita tu cerita ni..yg kwn sorg lg tu mmg x brp ckp dgn muaz..so i dh cm pelik dh...lama2 tu kwn ajk snap pic dgn pengantin...and diorg suro i dgn muaz naik ber2...tp muaz suro diorg naik dlu..hehehe..pelawa punya pelawa..last2 sume pn naik pelamin and snap pic..ade jgk lepas tu i dgn muaz snap pic ber2 dgn pengantin..masa tu terbayang2i dgn dia pulak akan ada ikatan yang sah dan jadi isteri dia sampai je akhir hayat i..heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.....

I bwk muaz jumpe my best GF yg masa tu tgh praktikal kt Ikea, Damansara...She's my girl...she's my bestie and my other half..we're like sisters!!!muaz time tu buat2 jadi cm one of the customer kt Ikea tu and tgo bestie i...hahahah...mcm2 kn?:D..Here's the picture of my best GF i ever had!!!dia ckp dia tau muaz syg i and leh jaga i...can u see that?semua org ckp cmtu...hohoho..so my trust kt dia pn jadi gain sket demi sket..

27 October 2012, kteorg pergi One Utama and jalan2...dia ckp dia nak belikan i make up...then dia tarik i masuk dalam Body Shop..hahahaha..adoiii..i dh la xreti nak make up tebal2 ni...dia kata nk sgt tgk i pakai make up yg lengkap...and so i make up first time..and tkut2...dia temankan i..and i gnggam lengan dia bila nak dimake up by the staff kt body shop tu...mata i berair..i mmg pkai make up..but i xpenah pakai bedak,lotion ape sume..i just pakai eye liner and buat kening..lipstick pn i x pakai..i jenis simple je..xske make up tebal2..so masa diorg make up tu..i mmg takut tahap gaban..heehe...dah lama tu...org tu pn ajr i cara nak make up..sbb nnt i yg kne make up sndri..Muaz nak i pakai make up everytime kuar dgn dia..sbb dia ske girl yg make up tebal2...dia ske girl yg cantik2...so for him,i pun terimala hadiah dari dia...Muaz hadiahkan i half of the make up set from Body Shop...

Muaz ckp,ex2 dia tau nak pilih make up yg mana...nama2 make up tu..diorg yg heret dia masuk and beli make up...tp dgn i..Muaz yg heret i masuk and beli make up..funny kn??not because of this Rm400 ish make up makes me love him so much...before semua ni i mmg dh sayang dia for who he is..xpayah nak bagi benda mahal2 untuk buat i jatuh hati kt dia..sbb then again..i just tengok hati laki tu...i nak yg baik,setia,jujur,ikhlas

and hargai i.

Ktoerg then pg mnum2 kt Papparich and there he was confessing his feelings towards me..mtk i jadi teman sehidup semati dia..mintak i jadi teman wanita..yang dia sayangkn i..and nak jadi teman lelaki i..nak jadi teman hidup i..sbb i complete him,hargai dia and sayangkn dia...after dah dgr semua tu dari mulut dia..What can i say?off course la i accept him!!!!and so,dia cpt2 kuarkan samsung tab dia and bukak facebook masa tu jugak utk tuka relationship kt fb masing2..dia buat dlu and i mcm nak nangis gembira sbb dia buat relationship kteorg PUBLIC!xckup dgn tu, dia print screen pulak..MasyaAllah..Alhamdulillah....aku dh jumpa lelaki yg aku perlukan dlmn hidup aku ni..xsangka it turn out to be like this...then bila i bukak fb i and nak tuka relationship tu..tgn i bgetar2..and cm xcye i'm actually taken by him..he wants me and need me in his life...dia xnak i jauh dari dia and dia nak the whole world to know about us..i pun buat relationship KTEORG public and dia print screen jgk..Syukur...i'm taken my Muaz Kamil, this wonderful man,my dream man yang alim, lembut,romantik,sabar,baik,setia ,xmerokok,social,kaler rambut apa sume and penyayang. and paling penting, dia terus bgtau family dia bouts US!:D:D:D

There's one time masa i nak ambik dia balik dari kje...everyday i tunggu dia kt lrt gombak after abes class...even mase break..dia turun wangsa maju utk jumpa dgn i..lunch dgn i..or i jmpe dia kt  area tmpt dia kje...so...time dia masuk je dlm kete...dia bg i this flower candy...sweet sgt!!!dia beli time tgh tggu i..dia nmpk ade org jual and dia terus beli utk i...masa tu i mmg terharu sgt and i pun nak bg something to him...





and i end up bg the souveniers that i bought from sabah and uk for him and his family...

I amik dia dari kje, terus i letak ni dalam laci dashboard kete i...and bila dia naik kte..tgh drive tu i suruh dia amikn brg dlm laci tu..and bila dia bukak je..i ckp supriseeeeee!!!!and dia pn tgk bungkusan ni...kteorg pg Festival City...and masa park kete tu...dia xdpt nak tggu dah..and terus bukak masa dalam kete...well kteorg xkuar dari kete and bual2..and dia bukak je hadiah tu..dia lak tharu..i tau dia x penah pg overseas...and i bg tasbih masa i pg umrah, souvenier masa i pg uk,i pg sabah..semuanya i bg kt dia and family dia....sbb ape?i dah sayang dia and siapa2 yg berkaitan dgn dia..especially family dia..i love him with every breathe that i have....i cakap kt muaz yg i xleh xde dia..i xleh jauh dgn dia...and masig bjanji akan sehidup semati sampai bila2..dia mtk i jaga hati i utk dia..i pn mtk dia jaga hati dia utk i..muaz mtk i jgn test2 dia mcmana i penah buat kt zhafri,ex i... then kteorg pn jalan2 kt Festival City and muaz berkali2 ckp tq kt i for these wonderful gifts!i ckp kt dia hadiah ni x sberapa and xmhal mcm yg dia bagi kt i...tp hadiah ni ikhlas dari i..utk dia dan keluarga dia...:)

makan makan at area umah dia...sedap!and i had lot of fun sbb muaz kje half day to spend time  with me!

I bawak muaz makan kt sakura kristal,tmpt bestie laki i kje and kenalkan diorg..bestie i,Donat suka sgt dgn muaz and ckp dia tau muaz akan jaga i dgn baik...

Dekat NZ Gombak..and used to be his favourite picture!sampai buat background kt Twitter dia..:)

Well look at this picture,this is the first time i make up sndri and Muaz ajak i pergi wedding pak cik dia..dia nak kenalkan i dekat family2 dia..and when i was there...i segan sangat2...i nak pakai simple2 je...tp Muaz nak tnjuk GF dia dekat family dia..

So masa tu Muaz jadi photographer and busy la kan...i dtg and adik ipar dia,adik dia..semua sambut i and masuk sama2 dgn i..diorg duk semeja dgn i..and so does muaz...dia makan semeja dgn i..mak dia pn sama..Alhamdulillah, mak dia baik,semua baik dgn i..happy sgt time tu...Muaz pulak snap2 pic i guna camera DSLR dia..

Masa duduk tu semua pndang..and i jadi nervous la kn...hahahaa..and then adik ipar muaz, introduce i kt family dia and ckp..ni la bakal dgn muaz..sejuknya hati i dgr...

Sambil makan tu..i borak2 dgn mak dia dgn adik dia..and then dah habis makan...i pun nak balik...i nak blik sndri..but muaz nak teman i smpai ke kete...masa tu pulak hujan..so...i ckp kat dia biar adik dia and adik ipar dia teman i..and so diorg pn teman i sampai ke kete...i tkejut tiba2 muaz masuk dlm kete..i thought dia nak borak2 dgn i jap and nak salam b4 i balik..rupa2nya dia nak culik i and spend time dgn i..i ckp kat dia if i tau dia nak lari dari tugas dia as photographer i dh kunci pintu x kasi dia masuk..family first i ckp kt dia and i ckp mesti nnt abah dia cari dia sbb dia bwk camera tu..mmg betul pn..abah dia call and tnye psal camera..dia ckp dia dgn i...and i pn suruh dia balik...tp dia xnak..dia xnak jauh dri i.dia nak kepit je dgn i..so kteorg pn jalan2...i know it sounds like menghalau...tp i bukan nak halau..it just that i paham commitment dia haritu...for me dia teman duk makan semeja pun dah cukup dh..

Gambar atas ni meunjukkan the week kteorg makan mewah..masa i ckp kt muaz yg i dgn family pg makan kt chilli's...muaz teringin sangat..and i janji dgn dia i akan bwk dia makan kt chillis and belanja dia..so basically,yg kiri ni kteorg pg klcc and makan kt chillis..we had so much fun..muaz can be a brother to me..he can be my bestie..he can be my lover..semua dia bole jadi..and masa tu kteorg snap pic and gelak2 dgn telatah masing2...hati ni makin lama makin sayang kt dia...muaz xpernah makan chillis and i lak x pernah belanja lelaki makan mahal2 mcmtu...

Gambar kanan ni pulak muaz bwk i makan kt seoul garden and belanja i..sbb i teringin sangat nak makan kt situ..Ya Allah...dia makan byk gila..smpai i jadi kaku tgk dia..kuat btl dia makan..mcm bukan mkn sorg..hahahaha..dia tambah tu tambah ni..i lak sampai x tau nak makan ape..kah3!but mmg best!!!sedap sgt..suka sukaaa!!!!Terima kasih Ya Allah atas kurniaan mu ini...

saja2 buat pic bergado dgn dia..hehehe...i wont forget this and i know dia pun xkkan lupa semua ni...sbb ape muaz nak i bg..muaz perlukan apa2 i ade je utk dia...and terima dia seadanya....lama2 tu abg i pun dah mula tau pasal kteorg sbb muaz ade post kt wall ckp psal how lucky he is to have me..and..abg sume tumpang gembira utk i...diorg nampak tenang je..sbb diorg tau muaz akan jaga i elok2...

and masa birthday cousin i,tu la first time kteorg keluar malam...

Dah pakai heels pn still he's taller than me!aiyaaaaa!

hurm ape lg ek...haaaaa!!!!lupa plak...so kira hari tu..kteorg jmpe the whole day..siang jmpe then malam jmpe balik...my cousin cakap yg dia nampak baik and syg i..leh jaga i...it's like semua org pakat nak ckp the same thing...HAHAHAHAHAA!!!yeah,he was so nice to everybody related to me...:-)
Ade one day tu, i tolong ambil adik dia kt airport..and niat just nak hantar diorg balik rumah and i pun nak balik..but mak Muaz ajak i masuk rumah and that was the first time i masuk rumah dia..and masa tu main2 dgn baby and have wonderful conversation with all of them...kteorg makan and borak,and main dgn baby.i ske sgt main dgn Rayyan...badan dia bulat and gempal..comel sangat2!!!.:)

Muaz berjanj utk pergi ke kubur arwah adik i sama2...and kat situ, dia bacakan Yassin..and i thought nak sama2 baca or baca sendiri2 but dia really baca Yassin utk arwah adik yang tersayang yang kembali ke rahmatullah pada 6Jan 2011Balik dari kubur,sampai je rumah i sujud syukur...sbb he completes me, complete my life...xpernah ada bf yang sanggup pergi ke kubur dgn i,xcukup dgn tu, bacakan Yassin untuk arwah..i tau,arwah pun tumpang gembira utk kakak dia..dari Syurga sbb sememangnya arwah x pernah berbuat dosa.

Muaz bawak i pergi genting and otw back..sempat snap pic with his new haircut...just for that day!^^

We had lunch dekat area Ampang, my fav place to eat nasi dgn asam pedas with sambal belacan..nyum nyum!

macam biasa,hari2 i ambik dia  kt lrt utk hantar dia blk rumah...but he never want to let me go that quick^^

Early dinner with him..dia nak makan or minum dgn i dlu baru boleh hantar dia balik rumah..i dont mind amik dia and hantar dia..as for me,jumpe kejap pun dh cukup..utk mngubati rindu dlm hati ni..

Muaz's fav pic as dia terus je upload via FB dia...with combination of nama coffee..comel je..=)

kteorg pg jalan2 kt Titiwangsa and i still rember..muaz bg i kenangan manis kt wangsa maju..dia nak buang kenangan pahit masa i dgn zhafri dlu..i really2 appreciate that...

There was one time,i dgn Muaz pg wedding kwn i sama2...and balik je kteorg snap pic dpn umah dia...Ujie cari dia kt umah dia...jumpe with mak Muaz and mtk tlg...Muaz time tu pilih i rather than Ujie...Muaz said that Ujie had been calling and texting him since she knew about me and Muaz..

Masa tu i takut sgt if org igt i rampas kebahagiaan Ujie...and masa tu..Muaz pujuk i...yang dia pilih i and nak jadikan i isteri dia..Itulah dugaan yg kedua antara i dgn Muaz...Ujie keep kacau Muaz and i jadi rasa tergugat even i'm his gf at that time...Jeles bcampur kesian dekat ujie..sbb i've been in her situation whereby i drive tanpa hala tuju,and so on..and so,Ujie ckp yg dia xpenah ade laki lain,and x penah lupakan Muaz...Time tu i rasa cam nak give up and suruh Muaz pg kt Ujie..walau hati x rela..


Muaz ckp ujie keep ckp pasal i dgn muaz yg baru saja lagi sedangkan diorg bersama lagi lama dari i..ujie mtk muaz tggalkan i..and pilih dia..tp muaz still dgn pendirian dia
dengan memilih i and jawapan dia muktamad masa tu. I xnak serabutkan Muaz sbb dia tersepit antara bekas GF dia dgn GF ade dgn dia skrg ni..tp i xsampai hati tgk Ujie sedih mcmtu..and masa tu i dgn Muaz gaduh2 tp remain teguh.i xpernah let him go and ask him to let me go.
Muaz ckp pasal kawin, and nak ambil i kt rumah, but i be very careful not reveal him to my family yet, until everything is confirm.sbb kte x tau apa akan datang.Muaz sndri penah ckp kt i..If dia tau sapa jodoh dia,dia akan focus kt org tu je..but the problem is, dia pun x tau siapa jodoh dia..Somehow, i bgtau kt my mum and dad tht i keluar dgn dia and kwn rpt dgn one guy, that is him.they know and that is enough for me..:)

Pic atas ni masa kteorg spend time kt Old Town Gombak and sometime we go there to watch movie via my lappy

 Pic atas ni Muaz bwk i jalan2 pergi IOI Mall and Paradigm Mall..that was my first time going there!

 Jalan-jalan at Titiwangsa lagi..kami mmg suka pergi taman...=)

 I gave him this ring sbb i xnak girl kacau dia..and i nak people to know that he's mine and i'm serious with him because i love him all my heart.

Hujung2 percintaan kteorg, Muaz and i pergi Al-Ikhsan dekat Wangsa Maju tu and masa pergi tu xde size and kteorg pergi cari kt Festival City and area Wangsa Walk..and Alhamdulillah,dapat jugak.Nasib baik i snap pic and tanye kat diorg..^^

The only guy i put his picture in my room with a frame!

Pertengahan bulan November, i bawak jumpa Nadia, another friend of mine yg stays at JB and masa tu dtg kl..i nak spend time with both, i nak jumpe both,i nak lunch with both..so i amik Muaz kt lrt and gerak area Ampang utk have lunch dgn Nadia...we talked and have wonderful conversation..masa Muaz ambil nasi, Nadia ckp the same thing as org lain ckp..he seems nice guy and leh jaga u..and Nadia was very happy for me. After jumpa Nadia, i rushing hantar Muaz naik lrt...sbb takut dia lmbt msuk ofce..but puas hati sgt2 dpt jumpa both!

Awal bulan December, Muaz dh x bg i pgg hp dia dh..wallpaper hp pun dh xde gambar i dh..b4 this dia ltk wallpaper pic i..and bila mak dia guna hp,mak dia nampak wallpaper pic i..mak dia pn tau yg dia btul2 in love dgn i..Even i have his psword, but i x check hari2...sbb i hormat privacy org..

I pg area Masjid Jamek to meet my sayang, and then i snapped this picture..as everything about him makes me excited...

Dulu, i boleh pergi office dia..lunch dgn dia..lama2 dia ckp dia busy with meeting..and i trust him...i still remember masa ni..Muaz susah nak lpskan i balik, sampai hantar i pg lrt semua..then baru la dia balik ke office dia..senang cte,dia jaga i mmg tip top!he always calls me guna fone ofce...even when i was in the class!hahahaha...

Hjung bulan December my brother is getting married, and i dgn family pun fly back to Sabah but before that, i ade consultation with my supervisor and i balik midnight...masa tu..Muaz call i,whtsapp and ape sja yg dia boleh buat to reach me...i lak xleh agkt sbb i xdgr and tgh focus in the discussion with my supervisor.. masa tu ade chinese guy dduk sblh i..and tnye i ape dia x fhm..i cant deny that i takut i hurt feeling Muaz if dia nmpk..even i x buat pape dgn guy tu...mana la tau dia tgk dari bwh ke..and nampak i dgn laki tu...i xnak hati dia sakit, sebab i sygkan dia..and when i syg dia..i syg hati n persaan as well as diri dia.

I try utk jumpe dia jugak b4 i pg Sabah..and dia masa tu ade meeting so i nak cancel jumpe dia but still dia nak jumpe i b4 i  fly pg Sabah..kteorg jmpe but lambat sket..so sambil tgu dia..i wrote him love letter..dh mcm time tu i rasa cm akn jauh sgt dgn dia..and when dia sampai je..kteorg borak2 and snap pic like we always do...berat hati nak lepaskan dia..rasa mcm xnak pergi Sabah je..hehehe...;p

Dekat Sabah almost everyone asking bout him..especially abg2 and kakak2 ipar i..kawan2 i..and auntie, uncle i..i told them i'm with him but all of sudden, Muaz act differently..i sampai je kt Sabah, dia byk diam...padahal i excited nak bgtau kt dia yg i dh sampai Sabah dgn selamat...pastu i tnye kenapa dia dh lain..dia ckp mana ade lain,dia ade commitment dgn family dia since ayah dia fly to NZ and only will be back this March. He said that dia ade commitment as anak,abg, ayah, and bf..Dia harap i paham..and after dgr explanation dia i pun percaya kt dia..but masa i kt Sabah mmg hati i rasa x sedap..there's something going on dgn my bf...i can feel it..He really change....and i pk ape salah i..ade i abaikan dia?x?ade i curang dgn dia?x..ade  i sakitkan hati dia?x...semua soalan i tanye kt diri i and end up dapat jawpan x..

Bila i sampai je dari Sabah..i sampai je umah Muaz dtg amik i and kteorg jmpe area umah i je..and lepak tgk pemandangan bangunan..Sumpah i rindu gila kt dia..even i pergi Sabah kejap je..happy sgt dpt jumpa dia and i bagi souvenier dari Sabah dkt dia and family dia..dia ajk makan..tp i ade curfew...so..xkkn x makan pulak..i pun lapar..so kteorg makan dkt area umah i..makan McD!:D, masa tu i tnye kt dia..dia ade girl lain ke?dia xde la and ckp i merepek.i hold that thought and byk kali i tanya masa kteorg jmpe..sbb i have the instinct that he's seeing someone..but i dont know who...but i know..ex dia xpernah i exclude in my thoughts..Muaz ade pergi main futsal every friday night with his friends..and ade jgk kuar tgk wayang malam2 and balik pagi...so, i was worried..and i tunggu dia balik rumah..terlelap pastu i bgn and check whtsapp..dia xckp pape lg,so i pn tdo balik...but i was really waiting for him..and tidur pun xlena..dgn bf lain b4 this xde pn sampai xtdo lena camni..

Kteorg pergi breakfat sama2 and Muaz amik i kt rumah...we had fun and dia pakai jersey yg i nak sgt tgk dia pakai...tadaaaa!!!!suka sangat tgk dia pakai kemeja and jersey..but the best yg i ske tgk is baju melayu...bila pg breakfast i pakai simple and xmake up tebal..just make up basic je..lagipun i dh selesa dgn dia and being myself..

Muaz slalu demam2 and i dtg visit dia and nak bg ubt kat dia..i tnye muaz knp dia asyik demam je..dia ckp dia byk buat salah and buat  dosa..dia ckp kt i yg tuhan hukum dia...i terus pujuk dia yang mcmana pun dia i ttp ada dgn dia...ade jgk time tu buah kt kebun masak..duku langsat manggis sume masak..and i bg kt dia and family dia..rumah dkt sgt kan..so jalan je la...bukan bawak dia jalan2...but i jaga dia mcm i jaga diri i sendiri or maybe more...huuuu...so i just bwk dia pergi beli bubur jagung..or makan kat situ jap then i pun hantar dia balik rumah...sbb nak dia cpt sembuh..i xsenang hati tgk dia sakit and menderita...that's why bila Ujie dtg cari dia i byk mengalah and xnampak cm i fight pn..samapaikan muaz ckp "Lemahnya cinta syg kat b"...

We see each other almost everyday...yeah i think everyday jugak la..sbb i offer utk amik dia balik from work kan..heee..so antara lama or x lama je..both of us rasa cm dh kenal lama je..sbb keep jumpa and jumpa..hehehe..pendek kata, we do many things together and byk first tme together...!!!

29December...dia mtk i jadi kawan dgn dia...and mtk space...sbb dia xnak salah pilih...tp dia ckp yg dia xde org lain..jgn risau...i jumpe dia and ckp kt dia..if ade girl bgtau la..sbb its better to know..berkali2 dia ckp dia xde girl lain..i trust him,tp naluri hati ni mmg kuat sgt ckp yg dia dh berubah and xtau love dia melyang entah ke mana..hari2 i pk ape salah i kt dia..sbb b4 i fly pg Sabah i ckp kt dia jaga hati dia,hati i and hubungan kteorg..jgn hancurkan hbgan kteorg sbb i rasa kteorg complete each other..

31stDecember, i ajak dia celeb new year dgn i...xpenah i ajk bf celeb new year..and xpenah jgk i celeb new year dgn bf..and i ajak dia..dia ckp nnt dia pk dlu...then dia ckp boleh je nak celeb...kteorg bincang2 last2 i pn terigt dia dlu penah terpk nak confess kt i kt taman klcc..with lampu2,fountain sume..so i pn ajk dia pg klcc..and dia pn suro ambil dia kt lrt..then i bsiap and then i pg amik dia..cousin i punya excited jadi tag nama dia kt fb yg kteorg ni kuar celeb new year...

Kteorg pergi makan kt Leha Kelfood, his fav place...and masa nak masuk tu i grab his hand, but dia tepis..tergamam i masa tu...and dia duk dpn i..slalunya dia duk sblh i..and then dia ckp i pakai lawa2 ni nak pg mana...dlu dia jgk yg ske i berhias2 sume ni...haihhh...what's wrong with him?i wonder....

Dalam Lrt i ckp kt dia bout cousin i tag dia, terus dia bukak samsung tab dia and dia remove..Sakitnya hati i tuhan saja yg tahu...tp i xnak pk negatif..i x nak fitnah...yg  i tahu,dia dh x jaga hati i lg..then masa tu kteorg gado besar...i sampai suro dia balik rumah..pg la celeb dgn family dia..and masa gado tu..dia sempat call mak dia..and i pn borak dgn mak dia..malam tu masing2 ckp..let's make this our night...and jgn ruin the moment...so kteorg pn celeb...msa kt klcc dia pgg tgn i time bjalan tu...and kteorg tgk fireworks sama2...dua2 ckp tu la first time celeb dgn bf and gf ...and lepas tu,i pg makan kt area umah dia...itulah rekod i balik paling lambat dgn dia...i'm willing because i really want to spend time with him..

Esoknya,i dtg nak bagi buah, but dia mcm nak mengelak dari i..Bila jumpa je dia..i bawak buah and dia ckp i nak ambik hati family dia..bayangkan dulu xsalah..skrg..ape je i buat salah kt mata dia..itu x kena ini x kena...i tau dia mesti mintak space lama..so i ttpkan utk mtk space jgk..at the same time i thought dia xnak..tp dia setuju jgk..dia ckp  dia x tau samada dia perlukan i atau x..sbb hati dia x tetap..jadi dia nak fikir betul2..i pun mtk space..i mtk sebulan..and suprisingly dia setuju...dia ckp bila dia sure dgn jawapan dia, bulan 4 dia akan masuk meminang. sbb takut dia ade org lain..kan pelik dgr tu..patutnya dia ckp nak masuk meminang takut i ade org lain..ni dia ade org lain....b4 i fly pg UK..tp sekarang ni dia nak masa utk bebas sebentar..dia xnak ade commitment...hancur hati i dgr benda tu kuar dari mulut dia...

Everyday i contact dia even i yg mtk space sbb i x kuar dgn guy lain and i dont have other guys...just him...mcm2 persoalan dtg bila one day..kawan laki i call i and tnye i kuar dgn muaz x..i ckp x..and dia ckp dia serba salah nak bgtau ke x..tp dia bgtau yg dia nampak muaz dgn girl lain...mcm nak acdent je time drive tu..tp i xcye..and i backup dia..i ckp tu mngkin adik dia or adik ipar dia..pastu kwan laki i ckp..diorg ber2 and muaz duk sblh dia,mesra lagi tu...masa tu..i diam and air mata mencurah2 keluar dari mata ni...i takut nak pcye ckp org lain..sbb i xdgr dari mulut dia sndri...i terus call dia and tnye dia kt mne..and dia buat apa masa 30 hb tu..pastu dia ckp dia tgh drive..dlu time tgh drive boleh je otf dgn i..dia ckp dia akn call blik..then dia call i..and i trus tnye sape pmnpuan tu..dia deny..and then dia ckp ala,kwn kje je pn..i ckp kt dia kenapa x bgtau..dia diam...i tnye byk kali ape salah i kt dia and knp dia buat kt i cmni..knp enter dlm hdup i..knp amik hati i bila dia  tahu yg dia xserious dgn i..

I ckp kt dia, detik2 i nak kenalkan dia kt family i,dia buat perangai...i dh janji dgn dia yg i nak kenalkan dia dekat family i 1st Feb nnt..masa tu bukan takat mak ayah abg2 je..auntie uncle sedara sume ade...and dia boleh kenal dgn diorg sebagaimana dia kenalkan i dgn almost the whole family dia...even i dh tau dia buat perangai,dia ade org lain, i masih lagi boleh terima and maafkan dia..in fact, i x tggal dia pn...i tanya Muaz dia pilih i sebab nak Ujie sedar ke..nak balas dendam kat Ujie ke..tapi muaz cakap dia nak uji..bukan nak UJIE diri dia betul x yang dia perlukan i dalam hidup dia.sebab dia x tau siapa everything to him..siap ada ranking lagi..Muaz ckp dia kuar dgn Ujie, dgn i and dgn Ekyn dlm masa yg sama..mcm nak pengsan je i dgr...dulu dia pengsan masa ujie tinggalkan dia..and now ape yg dia rasa, apa yg dia alami dulu..benda yg sama jugaklah yg i rasakan....sebab...3 prinsip yang i nak dari lelaki: kesetiaan, kejujuran dan keikhlasan di buang mcmtu saja..dulu dia yg sedih sbb ujie tggal dia..skrg dia bahagia dgn girl lain plak..

-To Be Continue-